Mundane Monday: Balance

Life has gotten away from me and I haven’t had much time for blogging this November. And I’m not even doing NaNoWriMo this year . . .  You might say my life has gotten out of balance!

One reason for this is that I’ve been playing a lot of music. I’m in three different orchestras and two chamber groups. I’m also in a couple of Facebook groups that are focused on music practice. I practice short snippets of my orchestra pieces, record the practice, and post the videos to the group for accountability and support. I first started doing this when I was practicing for my Telemann viola concerto performance last May.

I had a performance last weekend with the Silicon Valley Philharmonic, a group consisting mostly of music teachers and members of the San Francisco Korean Symphony that I heard about from a friend a couple of years ago when they needed last-minute violas. I have played several concerts with them since, some on violin rather than viola. The level of playing is higher than the other groups I am in. And this was a special performance at the Herbst Theater in San Francisco, in honor of Korean War Veterans.

The program opened with a quick Mozart Marriage of Figaro Overture, and then we played with the chorale on the Messe Solennelle for Saint Cecelia by Charles Gounod. Unlike Mozart, which I’d played before (but violin 2, not 1), the Gounod was new to me. It did remind me of some of the big oratorios, masses, and requiems that I used to play with the Philharmonic Society of Arlington back in Massachusetts.

The other players in this group, being music teachers with music degrees, didn’t need the rehearsal time that I generally do. I can keep up with players like these if I have played the piece before and/or have a longer rehearsal cycle and can take the music to a lesson, work out fingerings, and woodshed the hard parts. I didn’t have that luxury this time. The “one rehearsal” (as the conductor calls it) scared me a little. I missed accidentals. I realized that having played the 2nd violin part of a nice Mozart Overture doesn’t necessarily mean you’re ready to play the 1st violin part at a rapid clip. And I got completely left in the dust by some fast arpeggios in the Gounod Gloria, even though I had worked out fingerings beforehand and my stand partner graciously let me write them into her part that we were using. She played it all perfectly whereas I kind of wanted to hide under my chair.

But instead I went back to the practice room and recorded myself. There I am, reaching for the record button on my phone, violin balanced on my shoulder. I’ve done a lot more recording myself lately than I used to, and I cringe less now when watching myself. I already know the frames on those music glasses are so 2008, and I already know the guest room where I practice won’t win any decorating awards.

This passage lends itself well to practicing with a drone because each measure is a set of arpeggios with a specific base note. I can record the base note of each and play against it and listen. If I am playing out of tune, it will be noticeable because it will clash with the drone. To do this you need more than one electronic device, so I found a use for my old iPod with the broken screen (you can hear it in the background, along with the metronome). I thought this exercise would be like watching paint dry, but it’s surprisingly fun. The drone notes even add some tension, which you can hear building as the music goes on.

During the week before the concert, while I was practicing, I found out from a friend that the Philharmonic Society of Arlington was playing this very piece this year for their holiday concert. I knew it reminded me of them. It must be in the air!


I had been playing so much that I was starting to worry about repetitive stress injury. I sometimes felt tingling or pain in my wrists, fingers, and joints. My left index finger joint was a little swollen for a while. I had a lesson with an Alexander Technique teacher, who asked me to “look for ease” in my body when I was holding and playing my instrument.

That request often leads to my finding places in my body that lack ease: spots of tension that shouldn’t be there and places where I’m out of balance. I noticed in particular that lifting my instrument with only my left hand was not good for my left wrist. As you can see in the video below, I started lifting my instrument to my chin while also supporting it with the right hand. This has made a surprising amount of difference in how my left wrist feels: less tension, more balance. No pain.

This last practice video, the morning of the concert, was another type of practice I like to do with orchestra music: playing along with a recording. It’s hard to find the right tempo, but this one was close. I had come to see this passage as an etude. Never perfect, but I was getting closer and learning in the attempt.


The concert itself was really fun. I carpooled with a bassoonist friend and we talked about orchestra and our kids and our childhoods growing up in music. At the performance I didn’t play perfectly but I was no longer left in the dust or feeling like crawling under my chair. I looked for “ease” in my body as I held up my violin, and occasionally found it. My stand partner congratulated me after the concert, and I her. She asked where I taught and was surprised when I told her I taught science, not music.

I fantasized that this experience was giving me a window into an alternate life path, if only for an evening: that of professional orchestra musician. We took the stage of a beautiful theater and played beautiful music. And rang in the season of lights and concerts that won’t really stop until January.

St. Cecilia is the patron saint of musicians, after all.

Across from the Herbst Theater: SF City Hall, lit purple

15 thoughts on “Mundane Monday: Balance”

  1. The décor in my music room is much worse. 🙂 And if the glasses are the right RX for the job… who cares what the frames look like! You are an inspiration with how you practice and prepare for these performances. The concert was just beautiful to listen to. Worth the work.

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  2. Lovely! We just had our Rainshadow Chorale concert two weeks ago on Saturday and Sunday. I sepent the next weekk worn out and going to sleep at 6 or 7 pm….. whew!

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    1. I still have another concert, with chorale, on December 1. And my cello-playing son has three concerts this month, one rescheduled due to air quality! It is the season for music, and I love it this time of year. My birthday is also coming up, and I usually choose to go to a concert for that as well.

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      1. my kids both play violin and viola and now my daughter is busily learning guitar from the internet. She has one of my father’s guitars. It’s lovely.

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      2. Daughter went to a preschool that did violin and so son wanted to then too and he was in 4th grade. So we bargained and they had to commit to practice 5 min a day for a year. She stopped but started back up in 4th grade. She switched to viola by 8th grade and my son added viola at WSU and was in the faculty orchestra his last two years.

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  3. I think St. Cecelia wants us to play music and she’ll take it however she can get it. Yours is great, BTW, glasses and decorating and all, because, forget the drapes; it’s really all about the passion, right? And you have that and then some. Congratulations on fulfilling some long held earthly dreams with a long held perseverance. You are a role model. Happy Thanksgiving, Karen.

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    1. You’re right, and thank you! But I do hesitate a little to call my music a “passion.” I’m actually a bit of a slacker when it comes to practicing. I can get creative and focused on small short-term goals but the long-term, every-day slog can wear me down. Writing about it helps keep me motivated! Happy Thanksgiving to you too!

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  4. Despite all you said about the glasses and the music room decor, your playing was amazing, BTW I am sure have the same frames on sunglasses from about 10 years ago ( which I still use sometimes, because I love the frames so much.).

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